It is not easy to type from the bottom but I am doing it. In reading, you reader also.

make me feel ashamed about my tenuousness, anxiety, ambivalence, hatred for the task.

the concrete forms which are so much more certain about their ideas then I am and

and the bottom of the page so I am not distracted by the pattern of the words on the page,

and backwards, from the back of the notebook (imagined with lines and a black cover)

everyone can identify with starting fresh (I hope). I am writing by hand (not really)

important and everything is unimportant. I am starting, I plan to start a new notebook as

I am writing what I am thinking in the shower while I write in my blog: everything is